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Mon, 08 Jun 2009 00:12:00 -0400

This page is dedicated to allowing my fans to get to know the REAL ME and not look at me like "this famous girl" I see on TV! I'm a human too and I happen to be one with lots of opinions!

I like to consider myself a very wise person. I'm mostly very honest. My honesty sometimes offends people but for those who know me personally... you know not to take everything I say so seriously.

I like to entertain people and make them laugh. That's what it's all about in the end and as an entertainer you take the risk of offending people and/or making enemies everytime you open you mouth.

I don't mind taking that risk. I know my heart and so does God... so don't try to figure out what I mean by it... just laugh.

RANDOM SHIZZNIT!

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 13:20:00 -0400

The following statements are completely random thoughts!

They may be offensive to some...

Here's some advice...

YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ IT!!

Also... if you feel like I'm talking about you...

you should probably get some help!

And last but not least... if you are offended because I'm talking about a famous icon you love...

GET A FREAKIN LIFE!

THEY DON'T KNOW YOU AND DON'T LOVE YOU!

THEY'RE FAMOUS AND COULD CARE LESS IF I WRITE BLOGS ABOUT THEM! PLUS, JUST LIKE YOU, THEY KNOW I'M RIGHT TOO!

Am I the only one who thinks that Brittney Spears, Christina Agulara, Mandy Moore, Miley Cyrus... and all these other pop singin' white girls with blond hair are all the same! Did anyone else have a hard time remembering who sang what when they came out? I mean what happened to uniqueness and style??

:lol:

I don't listen when that sign tells me, "Keep Right Except to Pass"!

I'm passing everybody on the street so there's no freakin' point in me keeping right at any point in time! And I wish the other people on the road would take the signs advice and get out of my way!

(I have road rage obviously!)

:dry:

If you had to get your start doing nudity and/or porn, you either had no talent in the first place or you had no faith in the little bit of talent you had!

:roll:

Hollywood needs me...

I'm just waiting for them to realize it!

:cool:

Giving birth is no freakin' joke!

All you women with more than one kid... "big ups"!

:wink:

*Is there ever a time when you can call customer service and actually get someone who knows what the **** they are talking about!?*

:mad:

*How many times has someone tried to give you advice when they don't even have anything to show that they know what the **** they're talking about!?*

:tongue:

Little Known Facts About Vitelle

I've never been on a Plane!

I've never been to a Beach!

I've been homeless three times in my life!

I hate Shrimp... because of it's texture but I love the flavor!

I'm a little bit OCD! I can't leave the house with out everything clean and in order!

The first thing I do in the morning is open the windows to let the sun shine in!

I'm a neat freak!

My favorite restaurant is Golden Corral but I love any buffet, especially Chinese Buffets!

I raised a pet squirrel that I found in my back yard!

It takes about 4 hours or more to wash and flat-iron my hair!

I'll add to this blog as I think of RANDOM SHIZZNIT!

Ask me questions or share your opinion to fuel the fire!

"VITELLE YOU SO MEAN!"

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 11:35:00 -0400

I'm writing this blog in response to comments that a lot of my blogs seem a little too mean.

"Vitelle that wasn't very nice"... or "You don't sound like a Christian to me"... or "Why are you always so angry"!

Well, first of all... I'm not always angry... .. just most of the time I get irritated because people seem so stupid! :unsure: And when I'm angry or frustrated happens to be the time I do the most blogging! It is how I vent my anger and frustration, and it sure beats shooting people, vandalizing, or just becoming a complete terrorist! So I like to think I handle it well... and no one's making you read this s*** so shut the **** up!

LOL... Just Kidding!

But seriously I'm serious!

Don't tell me you've never had to deal with reps over the phone to set up your cable, internet, or something and you feel like you're speaking another language because it's just not getting across to them!

I can't tell who's stupider... the automated voice system or the humans!

I NEED TO START A NEW FREAKIN CONNECTION YOU FREAKIN RETARD!! :mad:

You try to hold in what you really want to say, but by the time you've been transferred to "someone else who can help you", and have had to say your name, address, phone number, etc... ten times!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! :mad: COULD YOU NOT HAVE TRANSFERRED THAT SH** TOO!!!

Don't tell me you don't get sick of dealing with unnecessary ignorance!!

I stopped at a four-way stop (FIRST) the other day... and the woman cussed me out because she decided she wanted to be the first to go and I didn't read her freakin mind! Now I try to refrain from just cussing people out but that b**** was askin for it!

JUST PLAIN OLD IGNORANCE!!!

Now I know this woman knew that the first person to stop at a four way stop was the first person to go. I doubt she would have had her license otherwise... so there was no reason for her to be yelling at me except ignorance!!

There are too many people with REAL disabilities in the world for everyone else to be acting so damn stupid!!! And for some reason I feel the need to be the one to let them know!!

When I asked the librarian where the trash can was and she told me... "I don't know... I ain't looked"!!!

FIRST OF ALL B**** YOU ARE NOT EVENSPEAKING ENGLISH AND I'MA NEED YOU TO KNOW WHERE THE DAMN TRASH CAN IS IF YOU WORK HERE!!!

:mad:

THERE ARE TOO MANY PEOPLE LOOKING FOR JOBS FOR THERE TO BE SO MANY IGNORANT ASS PEOPLE WITH JOBS!!!

I'M NOT BEING MEAN BY TELLING PEOPLE THE TRUTH!!! YOU ARE BEING MEAN BY SUGAR COATING THE TRUTH OR JUST LETTING PEOPLE WALK AROUND BLINDLY NOT BELIEVING THAT THEIR ACTIONS ARE IGNORANT!!!

WELL I'MA LET 'EM KNOW!!! I'M JUST SAYING WHAT YOU ARE THINKING, SO DON'T CRITICIZE ME!! :tongue:

And for those of you who say... "That is un-christian like"... :unsure:

Let me tell you something...

THE TRUTH IS THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD!! :D

...And as we all know the truth isn't always pretty!

And as for my anger... READ YOUR BIBLE!!! Even Jesus got angry in the temple and started throwing things around...

Even God get's angry!!!

And I can't blame him... his children are so freakin' ignorant sometimes!! :tongue:

What matters in the end is that I know how to LOVE people! If I didn't care I wouldn't waste my breath! I only tell someone their being ignorant if I want them to do better, or if it's stunting my progress of doing better myself!

I'm not going to let someone else's ignorance stop me! :cool:

To me ignorance is not spelling a word wrong, or not being able to solve a math problem... it's knowing something you say or do is wrong, rude, or stupid, but you do or say it anyway!!

Most businesses are just ignorant because there are too many people trying to run it and no one actually takes pride in their work to know answers to any question that could possibly present itself in their line of work! I shouldn't have to be transferred to so many people and still not get an answer!

So to sum up my point... please don't take what I say so personally... just use it to better yourself! If you know in your heart that you are the type of person I speak about... correct yourself! You don't have to post it publicly and I'm not targeting you... if it's you... it's between you and GOD!! Not you and my blogs!! :lol:

SO PLEASE JUST LET ME VENT PEOPLE!!! :ohmy:

AND IF YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY, OR AGREE, OR HAVE A STORY OF YOUR OWN THAT RELATES!! LEAVE A COMMENT!!! I LOVE TO HEAR THAT I'M RIGHT!! :cool: LOL!

GOD'S PLAN

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 12:58:00 -0400

"I often wonder why, every time I find myself in a good position, (executive assistant, office manager, etc.) I end up getting fired!

I'm a very hard worker. No matter where I am or what my responsibilities are at the time, I tend to take it into my own hands to be the best of the best.

I work overtime even if I don't get paid for it!

I take on projects that are not even required of me.

For anyone to fire me, they'd have to be crazy!

But it's happened! Too many times! It's always for the strangest reasons. Usually it's because someone else in the company is instigating because they just don't want me there.

I never really understand, but I do understand it is God's plan.

I know what I'm best at and I'm so talented I scare myself sometimes. I know that my talents come from another source because I could never be this good on my own.

I know that there's a reason I can't hold a "regular day job", and it's not because I'm not good at it.

It's just because I'm not where God wants me.

I'll get a good job and be there for three months or less. Long enough to get enough money to hold it together for a while.

Then I'll be out of work for up to a month or two.

Before, I spent my time job hunting and panicking. Wondering what to do and praying and asking why.

Not this time!

I've got my head on straight now, and I know where I'm going!

This time I'm just going to focus and work on my REAL CAREER until I get there. I have to have faith enough to know that if it is

God's plan he WILL make it happen!

I have to take a leap of faith, be brave and make a big move, and pray that God keep our finances while I follow the path he sets for me!

It just goes to show you, GOD'S PLANS are not always what we want or are comforable with. I don't think I would have quit my job on my own. But God made a way, just as he always does!

ANOTHER POLITICAL BLOG!!!

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 16:05:00 -0400

I'm sorry but with only a few days left before the world changes forever...

Vitelle still has so much to say!

:)

So here's a few things that have crossed my mind as the election has progressed...

SARAH PALIN IS A CROCK OF SH**!!
Are you serious??? Voting for this woman would be like voting for Paris Hilton... No one really knows what the hell she does... they just know SHE'S FAMOUS!!!

Sorry but I don't want a stupid famous person for President!

JOHN MCCAIN LOOKS JUST LIKE AN UMPA LUMPA!

Did you notice how on SNL all the impersonators look just like the real thing...

EXCEPT FOR MCCAIN!!! That's because he looks like a freakin Umpa Lumpa and not too many people can pull that off!!

:D

Ok... Now that I've got my silly out of my system... here are some serious facts that you should take into consideration when you read my blogs! Although I make fun of the Republican party for things that have nothing to do with presidential qualifications, I am seriously against McCain and Palin for the white house... and these are the real reasons why!

These are only a few... I could go on for many blogs stating the facts...

but this should get you started....

Interesting Facts about the two highest offices in the Nation

(verify them on Wikipedia or google)

This is a close presidential race. But we really haven't measured the effect of "race" on the race. Think about this and what it means about how important "race" is, (and shouldn't be) and let others see it:

Obama/Biden vs McCain/Palin, what if things were switched around?

Think about it!!

     What if the Obama's had paraded five children across the stage, including a three month old infant and an unwed, pregnant teenage daughter?

     What if John McCain was a former president of the Harvard Law Review?

     What if Barack Obama finished fifth from the bottom of his graduating class?

     What if McCain had only married once, and Obama was a divorcee?

     What if Obama was the candidate who left his first wife after a severe disfiguring car accident, when she no longer measured up to his standards?

     What if Obama had met his second wife in a bar and had a long affair

while he was still married??

     What if Michelle Obama was the wife who not only became addicted to pain killers but also acquired them illegally through her charitable organization?

     What if Cindy McCain graduated from Harvard?

     What if Obama had been a member of the Keating Five? (The Keating Five were five United States Senators accused of corruption in 1989, igniting a major political
     scandal as part of the larger Savings and Loan crisis of the late1980s and early 1990s.)

     What if McCain was a charismatic, eloquent speaker?

     What if Obama couldn't read from a teleprompter?

     What if Obama was the one who had military experience that included discipline problems and a record of crashing seven planes?

     What if Obama was the one who was known to display publicly, on many occasions, a serious anger management problem?

     What if Michelle Obama's family had made their money from beer distribution?

     What if the Obama's had adopted a white child?

You could easily add to this list.

If these questions reflected reality, do you really believe the election numbers would be as close as they are?

Educational Background:

Barack Obama:

Columbia University - B.A. Political Science with a Specialization in International Relations.
Harvard - Juris Doctor (J.D.) Magna Cum Laude

Joseph Biden:

University of Delaware - B.A. in History and B.A. in Political Science.
Syracuse University College of Law - Juris Doctor (J.D.)

vs.

John McCain:

United States Naval Academy - Class rank: 894 of 899

Sarah Palin:

Hawaii Pacific University - 1 semester
North Idaho College - 2 semesters - general study
University of Idaho - 2 semesters - journalism
Matanuska-Susitna College - 1 semester
University of Idaho - 3 semesters - B.A. in Journalism

(If you tried to get a job with this kind of background they'd take you for someone who is not sure where they want to be and would NOT hire you! Is President and Vice President not the MOST IMPORTANT JOB IN THE NATION!!??)

You make the call.

:unsure:

Making Change - My Upcoming Documentary!

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 12:16:00 -0400

This blog is sure to pose much controversy! People will hate me for this!

Do you really think I give a rat's ass??

I'm Vitelle!

Too many people love me for me to worry about the ones that don't!

Now I'll warn you this is a long one, but it's probably the best I've ever written!

This is a story about a Library that was built in Lexington, KY and opened just this past week! I don't know the exact figures but hundreds of thousands and probably millions went into creating a custom Library to "meet everyone in the communities" needs.

There was a huge open house in which the mayor and governor gave speeches, which I will share my opinion on latter....

Hundreds of people showed up and there were tons of refreshments. Hundreds of dollars must have been spent on the open house alone.

This Library was built directly next to what used to be the North side Branch Library! It is twice as big and some of the new facilities include. A cafe, a teen room, children's area twice as big as the old one, four more restrooms, 60+ more computers, several meeting rooms, and a quiet room!

There are six other large libraries in Lexington!

So why am I so upset? First of all I was forced to drive three times as far to the Central Library everyday for the past few weeks to pick up a wireless signal because BOTH Libraries needed to be closed for the building of the new one! With the price of gas I would have been better off getting Insight again. (Which, by the way, is a big rip-off).

Anyway, can someone explain to me why a LIBRARY would possibly need a QUIET ROOM??? IT'S A FREAKING LIBRARY!!! I'm sitting in that "quiet room" right now and some Mexican guy is graciously talking on his cell phone... IN SPANISH!!!

So not only is he disturbing me but he could be talking about me and I wouldn't know!

As for this teen room? Is this supposed to keep them from dropping out of school? Because half of Lexington's teen population HAS DROPPED OUT, or has some plan to drop out in the near future! Why the hell did we just spend several thousand dollars to give them a TEEN ROOM for them to lounge around in?! With custom made couches, by the way.

Can someone explain why we need this giant sign? You can't tell it's the Library by the other 3 big ass Library signs on the building!

They say this place is twice the size of the old Library but I've noticed while walking through here that the book shelves are only half as full! So did we really need this much more space?

And what's with this Cafe??? If I wanted to eat something... WHY THE HELL WOULD I COME TO THE LIBRARY??? GO TO A FREAKIN RESTAURANT!!!

I can't get any work done here! It's like a freakin mall! As for the QUIET ROOM.... AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Now normally I wouldn't complain so much about the way these rich people spend their money... but let me explain why I've so cordially made it my business.

I met a man today, right before the "Grand Opening" of this new Library!

He sits by Taco Bell almost every day, holding a sign stating he's a homeless Vet and needs help. Most people don't help him.

Today I decided to stop and talk to him. I didn't have any money to give, but I had love!

Plus they told me the Library would open today but when I got there at 9am to work they said,

"Oh we won't open until after the Governor does his spill at 11".

So I was mad, mainly at rich people, because I wanted to get online and find some work and they were in my way spending all their money on unnecessary things.

So I stopped and talked to this man by Taco Bell... his name is Gary. My anger grew as I learned how many homeless people there where in the area. Gary told me all about his life and how he lives now and his "friends" that live, homeless, with him.

I recalled being homeless myself; twice since moving to Lexington. The fact that there are so many agencies and places that are supposed to assist you, but when I called or went to those places, none of them ever did!

The fact that there is ONE Salvation Army in Lexington and when I needed them, they told me there were no rooms open. They said I can try the one in Garrett County or something. Yeah... what homeless person do you know is going to take her two children to some foreign county to find shelter when there should be one right here for her and people like her.

Plus, I don't know how many people know this, but the Salvation Army only accepts women and children. THERE IS NO HOMELESS SHELTER IN LEXINGTON FOR MEN!!!

I learned a lot on the day I met Gary. I learned that most of the homeless men were Veterans who fought for our country and some of them even had sons in Iraq fighting now. I can't help but wonder if their sons will end up in the same situation as them after America has chewed them up and spit them out!

I learned a lot that day, but I had so many questions!

Why is there no shelter for homeless men? Why is there not enough room in the shelter for homeless women and children? Why are all these programs, designed to help, always "out of funds"? Why are the people who risked their lives for our country sitting on the corner with no food, money, or a place to live? Why is there a "camp" with 15+ homeless men huddled together under tents made from old sheets, tarp, and sticks trying to keep warm??? AND WHY THE F*% DID WE JUST BUILD A MILLION DOLLAR LIBRARY JUST A COUPLE OF BLOCKS AWAY FROM THEM????????

I got an idea on the day I met Gary. I got that feeling in me that I get all the time?

like I'm about to do something huge and make a difference.

I made a deal with Gary. I told him I'd take him to the grocery store and get him what he wants with the little bit of change I had if he would do me a favor. I asked him to accompany me to the Grand Opening of the Library. I tried to explain to him that the mayor and the governor would be there and perhaps if they saw first-hand the reality of the homelessness in Lexington, the least they could do is make it their next project.

I planned to wait until the time to ask questions and ask the board myself why so much money was spent on redoing one of the many Libraries in Lexington, yet there is only one Salvation Army that does not have enough rooms.

I planned on stepping up to the front and introducing Gary and myself and telling a brief description of our stories. I had it all planned out and as I stood there with Gary listening to the bullsh** the mayor and governor were blabbering about, I worked up all the courage and adrenaline inside of me to do one of the bravest things I'd ever done.

Well? the time didn't come. They never got to the part were they ask questions. So right before they were about to cut the ribbon and I knew it was my last chance I ran up to the front and waved my hands and yelled out... "I have a question!"

Funny how everyone in the audience heard me and reacted but the mayor, governor, and all the little rich people went on with their ribbon cutting and completely ignored me!

They were putting on a show for the cameras and they wouldn't let anyone ruin it.

Well, I refused to be ignored!

I went up to the mayor myself and asked what I'd come to ask! If you could have seen the look he gave me, like I was the scum of the earth! How dare me accuse him of not doing his job!

He said to me, "I just came from the Salvation Army this morning"!

"So what do we plan to do about the fact that it is too small?"

"Are you going to expand it?

"Make a bigger one?"

I commanded my answer!

I didn't like the way he responded to me!

"We've given them plenty of resources for them to use what they've got!"

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! I COULD HAVE SLAPPED HIM IN HIS F*%&@** HEAD!!!!

I WONDER IF HE'D HAVE TALKED THAT SH*% IF I HAD GOTTEN A CHANCE TO ASK HIM PUBLICLY?!

Was there nothing more I could do? Nothing else I could say? I looked for one of the news crews on the way out. I wanted everyone to know what just happened. I'd seen them there earlier but they had probably snuck out before the end. I can't blame them considering this speech was worse than listening to McCain!

"We are rich and we should be richer and we don't have enough money but look what we did and we've done so much and made such a difference and changed the world with our money!

Oh there's poor people out there?"

I left feeling defeated trying to come up with another plan, determined to make a difference!

As I rode in the car to drop Gary off along with his groceries, he looked at me with the biggest grin and a glow on his face and he said...

"I GOT TO MEET THE MAYOR"!

He was sooo happy! All of a sudden I felt accomplished and his smile melted my defeat away.

He told me I did a big thing today and he told me I was very brave, even though I felt like a coward and like I had failed. I gave him the groceries which I bought with all the change from my children's' piggy bank, and I gave him the rest of the change that was left. As he walked away I spotted another homeless man in the place were I'd found Gary.

I got another idea?

I called up my friend Daniel Roberts who I'd known to be a good photographer and filmmaker. I told him what had happened so far and that I wanted to make a homeless sign for myself, only instead of mine saying, "I'm homeless, please help", it would say,

"I'm ready for change, please vote for Obama"!

I planned to stand behind that homeless man and hold up my sign so people would see one of the many truths that I believe Obama can make a difference with.

I had questions for the mayor, the people on the board of this Library, the homeless people, and the people who are supposed to help at the Salvation Army and other programs!

And I was going to ask them all... and get it all on tape!

I don't know what I planned to do with the footage exactly but I know that people need to see this.

Dan the Man was in and we had a plan and rolled with it!

I interviewed these homeless men about how they got there, how they live now, and what they want for their future.

Most of them had some kind of talent. One was an artist, one was an author. He told me how he's going to write a book and make millions.

These were people who were all the way at the bottom yet still had the biggest dreams.

It reminded me that if they can still dream there is no reason for me to doubt my own when times get tough, and I believed in their dream as much as I believe in my own.

I'll never forget when I came back to interview all the homeless men in their "camp", Gary said to me, "I feel like I've ripped you off. Was I really worth all that change?"

I had tears in my eyes as I answered...

"You are worth WAY more than that and if I had it I would have given you much more!"

And I will keep that vow as I make my way to Hollywood. As soon as I get my hands on that "movie money" you better believe I'll be putting up homeless shelters all over this country!!!

Maybe I'll call them...

"Gary's Home"!

In the mean time... I'm not waiting for my millions to roll in before I do something. I'll be sending my footage to all the news channels and talk shows I can get my hands on to see

how much help I can get to make a difference.

Now that I know where Gary and all his friends lay their heads, the place they call "camp", I'll be dropping off blankets, food, whatever I can get my hands on through the programs that help women. I even have plans to teach Gary how to read!

I'll teach them all how to go out and apply for jobs so they can possibly get back on their feet!

I'll let them know someone cares and they have not been forgotten!

The man in the photo with me was arrested a few minutes after I left...

...FOR SITTING ON THE SIDEWALK!!!

This is the America we live in.

This is why I want to make a change!

I'M SICK OF UN-TALENT!

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 12:12:00 -0400

Is anyone besides myself sick of seeing Hanna Montana on every freakin' shirt, back pack, doll, and even dishes??

Are you sick of hearing about Britney Spears' kids or what wig she chose to wear today???

And what about Anna Nicole!?? The woman's DEAD!!! Can we please let her rest in peace!

Well I'm sick of it... even though one day all the tabloids will be talking about me and everyone will be sick of me... but you know the difference??

I'M TALENTED!!!

Anyone in their right mind knows that Miley Cyrus, aka Hanna Montana, is only famous because her dad is rich and famous!!!

Britney Spears used to be talented but now I've got a feeling she just wants to be left alone!

As for Anna (rest her soul), you can't convince me there was any talent there in the first place.

IT'S LIKE THE STARS TODAY ARE UN-TALENTED!

THEY'RE TALENTLESS!
:ohmy:
And what happens to all of us TALENTED people who can ACT, SING, or DANCE but are not RICH!?

We struggle day to day to make a living with our talents while also struggling with the decision on whether or not to give up because our family's have to eat and photo shoots are just so few and far between! We work for free most of the time because we want so badly to perform and share our talents but there's no work in our area for "ARTISTS"!

Then we go to the grocery store and spend our last dime and on the way out see a kid screaming "I WANT THIS HANNA MONTANA SHIRT"!! when that kid is way cuter than her and can probably sing better yet she looks up to this UN-TALENT!

Then we see a tabloid about Paris Hilton.

WHAT THE HELL DOES SHE DO ANYWAY???

It makes me sick! Are there any agents out there looking for people with TALENT??!! I can't even watch TV anymore! The acting sucks and I can't help but say... "WAIT TILL I GET UP THERE!

I'M GOING TO SHOW YOU PEOPLE HOW IT'S DONE"!

It's Time to Change the World!

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 12:05:00 -0400

My apologies to everyone! You haven't heard from me in weeks. I haven't updated my website. No one can get in touch with me by phone or internet...

Well let me tell you why!

The last few weeks have been Hell for me! I was evicted from my apartment... (My sweet fancy luxury apartment with the fireplace... pool... vaulted ceilings... jacuzzi... gym... sauna... spacious closets... and pool...)

Anyway... I'd gotten fired from my "day job" as an Executive Assistant several months ago FOR "BEING TOO PREETY"! (That's not a joke, I was actually told the only way I can get a "REAL" job is to sleep with the boss). I tried to look at this situation positively, as an opportunity to focus on the career I really want, which is acting and modeling (WHICH HAPPENS TO BE A REAL CAREER AS WELL)! Of course it's tough finding the work I need in and around KY so I was no longer able to afford the Luxury Apartment.

It's ok though; sacrifices must be made when following your dreams. Staying positive as usual I figured if I moved into a much smaller and much less expensive place, I'd be able to save up enough money to get out to those cities I need to be in.

So I found a place to live... a very small efficiency and very low budget! I wish I had been saving up for this move in the first place instead of trying to live nice! I was not looking at long term!

On the day I was moving into my new place, (note: I was traveling back and forth across town loading everything into my Matrix and into the new place by myself) as I'm unpacking the Landlord (nosy as can be) notices a toy box amongst my belonging.

He says, "Do you have kids?". I said, "Yes I do".

He completely lost his mind!! He started yelling, "There's no way... We can't do this... This isn't going to work..."! He was putting me out after I'd already signed the lease and before I'd even got moved in! He couldn't do that! It felt like it was the end of the world for me because I'd already looked at so many apartments and none of them worked. This was my last resort and he was putting me out! Where would we go? Where would my children sleep tonight??! I was panicking and didn't know what to do! And I'll be honest, I'm saved but in this situation I really wanted to slit that man's throat. And I know that's wrong. I tried to reason with him. I reminded him that my husband and I work all the time and we'd never really be at the apartment except to sleep. I told him we travel all the time and really just need a place to store our stuff and lay our heads every once in a while. He just kept saying that my kids would disturb the neighbors and that he didn't care! "That's your problem", he said! I could have just killed him right then and there! I was so devastated!

I called my husband who had to leave work even though we were trying to make sure he didn't miss any more days! That's why I was moving all this stuff myself in the first place. I started to call the cops to tell the landlord he had to give us 30 days because I knew this wasn't legal. But after talking with my husband neither of us felt safe staying there after the way this man acted. So the only thing we could do (that was legal) , was to try to find a place to live.

We drove around all day. I cried all day. Every apartment we went to turned us down or just couldn't have a place ready fast enough. It was getting close to time to pick up the kids before the daycare closed and I was preparing to have to sleep in the car or stay in a shelter with my boys. You can't imagine what that feels like! I wanted to blame someone. I blamed the landlord of course, for not having a heart. But I also blamed America, because of the fact that I'd called every program that is made to help people in my situation, homeless people, and none of them could help. They all said they were full or were not taking applications, all excuses!

As angry as I was my husband and I kept praying the whole time. Just when we were about to give up and face reality we stopped at one last apartment complex. It was a place that neither of us would have ever chosen to live. "Ghetto" some would call it. I didn't even want to go in the office but there weren't too many options. We went inside and the lady working there happened to be someone who went to school with my husband. We told her the situation and she said that the soonest she could have an apartment ready would be the next morning. Although it wasn't ready now, it was the best news we'd heard all day. She was willing to waive our application fee, lower our rent, and even take cash although they don't normally do that but it was all we had. (That's because US Bank stole all of my money and now I have no bank account and don't trust banks anymore).

But anyway, we had the relief knowing that we would have a place to call home for a little while. We just had to figure out what to do for tonight. On our way to get the kids I saw 6 homeless people. People with signs, shopping carts full of all they owned, Veterans who had fought for THIS COUNTRY and now this country treats them like the scum of the earth. With all these people on the streets, I wondered who was sleeping in the beds or homes of all those programs that were meant to keep people off the streets. I cried the whole ride. I was sad but there's no word to explain exactly what I felt. I felt like there was something building up inside me; like a million little people building something GREAT?

I FELT GREATNESS! I FELT CHANGE!

I didn't know what God was trying to tell me but I knew it was something BIG! There is a reason we ended up in this community. God knows we would have never moved there on our own. And as devastating as it seemed at the time, I felt inside of me that he was making a way to put us exactly where we needed to be! I knew it was no coincidence. This is the 5^th time in my life I've moved into an apartment before I'd ever even seen it, including the one I lived in for 20mins. This is the third time I'd been homeless... at least this time it was only for a few hours! These are all the thoughts that were running through my mind as I lay on the floor with my family in an empty luxury apartment home, in the dark, trying to sleep and hoping that tomorrow would be a better day. Knowing that something big was happening inside of me that would affect thousands... millions... and wondering what it could be.

After all that I've now settled into my "never-before-seen", "ghetto" apartment home. And believe it or not, it's pretty nice... on the inside. I hooked it up pretty good and remind myself everyday of where I'm going and not where I am. In the mean time I'm determined to make a change. That greatness that I felt, and still feel, makes me want to CHANGE THE WORLD! Now I know that's a big task for one person, but I'll never know what changes can be made until I start.

Thus, my TO DO LIST:

1. Get involved more in the community and state that I'm in now!

There are a lot of programs that are to mentor to children, clean up communities, prevent crimes, build homes, etc. I plan to get involved with as many as humanly possible. Every day that I'm not filming or shooting I'll be doing something to positively affect others in this world. I'll start with this community, county, state, then venture out as far as I can go. The Sky is the Limit but I've got to start somewhere!

2. Spread the word, "Vote for OBAMA"!

I've never really been into the whole white house, voting, stuff. Honestly, I never really cared. I couldn't even tell you who was running before. Because it didn't affect me, it didn't matter to me and that is very selfish. Now that I've seen firsthand the other side of this country and how the decisions made up there affect us down here, I want more than anything to get someone in the position who I know will make a CHANGE. If I could run for president myself I would? But for now I'll just do everything I can to make sure Obama makes it. I want to see a change in this country and from listening to him speak I know that's what he wants more than anything as well! As far as McCain goes, he's all about making the Rich Richer so if you are rich and don't care about anyone but yourself then you can vote for him! For those who love others, want to help others, want to make the world a better place, want peace? VOTE FOR OBAMA!

3. SPEAK MY MIND!

Just like I'm doing now. I know you guys haven't heard from me in a while but soon you'll get tired of hearing from me! I'm going to speak my mind about everything I see, feel, know, think?

I will not be silenced! This is a free country right? (Most of the time.) So I've got a freedom of speech and I'm going to use it! Via Blogs, Bulletins, Letters, Emails, and of course my BIG MOUTH! (Another thing I know God didn't just give me for no reason).

If you don't want to hear it, close your ears, stop reading, shut yourself off to reality and don't care about anyone but yourself. You will always be selfish and you will always be miserable. Great things come to those who take the time to help others.

I will speak about LOVE, GOD, POVERTY, CRIME, HATE, RACISM, TEEN PREGNANCY, DRUGS, VIOLENCE? Everything that is WRONG I will do everything in me to make RIGHT!

And ya know what? I could care less what people think about it! I want people to back me, agree with me, be inspired by me, and hopefully decide to make changes themselves? but for those of you who disagree, think negative things about what I say or do? Well, I've already been to the bottom. There is nothing you can say to me, do to me, or take from me that hasn't already been said, done, or taken. I've seen the worst of it, so I've nothing to lose and everything to gain!

If you took the time to read all of this (I know it was a lot) I THANK YOU VERY MUCH! And I ask that you express how you feel about all that I've said by leaving a comment! I encourage you to share your opinion or ask me any questions. I'll do my best to respond to everyone. I won't know where I'm needed if no one tells me!

I TRULY LOVE YOU ALL! And that is why it aches in me to see someone in trouble or in need. But I WILL MAKE A CHANGE? AND SO CAN YOU!